Everytime I feel week it amazes me how just a single thought of the Lord can strengthen me. Having the Lord with me is a constant reminder that no matter what stands before me I can overcome it, with him!
Even when I am at my lowest and I am feeling my weakest whether it be mentally, physically, emotionally, or spiritually, I know that all I have to do is surrender and give it all to him. And in doing that I am at my strongest.
Being able to surrender yourself to the Lord in low moments, takes courage. I know for me, in those moments, I feel extremely vulnerable. Its as if all of my insecurities and secrets are exposed.
But for me it takes exposure and vulnerability to realize, that this is not my life. I am not in control! And in order for me to face what lies a head, I need the Lord and his strength. My strength is not enough.
2 Cor 12:10 For When I am weak I am strong.
When I am weak, is when I have stopped battling, thrown in the towel and surrendered! See I tend to forget that these battles are not mine to fight. I already have victory, I have the Lord. I constantly remind myself that surrendering to Lord is strength.
I want to be weak all the days of my life, because I want to walk with the Lord all the days of my life, and he is all the strength that I need!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Monday, April 20, 2009
Unspeakable
So lastnight on my way home I found myself staring out the window up at the sky (don't worry I wasn't driving) talking to God. Or at least I was trying to talk to him. But I couldn't find the words.
At first this started to scare me! It's not like me to not have anything to say, especially to God. Trust me I am a talker... As I sat there searching for words, tears started to form in my eyes. Does this mean, I am falling away from the Lord? If I can' t talk to him, how is he going to hear me? To be honest for the split second I felt so far away from him.
As we continued our drive, I closed my eyes, shut my mind off, and opened my heart. And at that moment, I felt so peaceful... As I rested in this peace, I begun to understand. I was having a moment with God, and it was a moment that didn't need any words. With a moment like this, there are no words to be spoken. It was about resting in the presence of the Lord. It was about love and trust.
Here I was causing myself to almost have an anxiety attack, because I couldn't find the words to be said to God, and wondering if I was so far away from him that he could not hear me. But the reality of this is, I have never been closer to him.
See I have been taught to talk. Talk about your feelings, emotions, fears, and everything in between. I always thought that as long as I talk, everything will be ok. But the Lord taught me something lastnight. Sometimes you just can't talk about it. There are no words. But just because we don't have the words, doesn't mean he can't hear us. The Lord knows our hearts!
If I wasn't seat belted into my seat, this was a moment that would of brought me to my knees. Our God is a great God!
At first this started to scare me! It's not like me to not have anything to say, especially to God. Trust me I am a talker... As I sat there searching for words, tears started to form in my eyes. Does this mean, I am falling away from the Lord? If I can' t talk to him, how is he going to hear me? To be honest for the split second I felt so far away from him.
As we continued our drive, I closed my eyes, shut my mind off, and opened my heart. And at that moment, I felt so peaceful... As I rested in this peace, I begun to understand. I was having a moment with God, and it was a moment that didn't need any words. With a moment like this, there are no words to be spoken. It was about resting in the presence of the Lord. It was about love and trust.
Here I was causing myself to almost have an anxiety attack, because I couldn't find the words to be said to God, and wondering if I was so far away from him that he could not hear me. But the reality of this is, I have never been closer to him.
See I have been taught to talk. Talk about your feelings, emotions, fears, and everything in between. I always thought that as long as I talk, everything will be ok. But the Lord taught me something lastnight. Sometimes you just can't talk about it. There are no words. But just because we don't have the words, doesn't mean he can't hear us. The Lord knows our hearts!
If I wasn't seat belted into my seat, this was a moment that would of brought me to my knees. Our God is a great God!
Thursday, April 9, 2009
First and Foremost
Well hello everyone, so my lovely sister Mandy thought that this would be a good Idea for me, since I love to journal. And the more that I thought about, I had to agree with her. I titled my blog as Stefany's Thoughts, and I think that pretty much sums it up! My goal with this Blog is to share my thoughts, opinion's, and even special moments that may take place. What you may get from this on a daily basis could be something simple to maybe something profound.
I will share with you my desires and passions. But most importantly with my new found "Blogging" you will get an up close and personal look with my walk with the Lord. Most of you have seen my walk grow and have even been a part of my growth, and for that I am most grateful. Each of you have been such a blessing to me...
Each of us has our own personal relationship with Jesus. And our relationships with him are so precious and sacred. For the longest time I didn't want to share what I have with him. My time with him is my time, which is still true. But I am also I light for him. I want to share what I have, just maybe by my thoughts and personal walk with the Lord, I can bring someone that much closer to him.
The Lord desires a intimate relationship with each one of us. His love and faithfulness is at times far more than we can ever understand. But it is so real. I have experienced his love and faithfulness first hand, and I have been blessed in ways that I could never truly explain to you in words.
I will share with you my desires and passions. But most importantly with my new found "Blogging" you will get an up close and personal look with my walk with the Lord. Most of you have seen my walk grow and have even been a part of my growth, and for that I am most grateful. Each of you have been such a blessing to me...
Each of us has our own personal relationship with Jesus. And our relationships with him are so precious and sacred. For the longest time I didn't want to share what I have with him. My time with him is my time, which is still true. But I am also I light for him. I want to share what I have, just maybe by my thoughts and personal walk with the Lord, I can bring someone that much closer to him.
The Lord desires a intimate relationship with each one of us. His love and faithfulness is at times far more than we can ever understand. But it is so real. I have experienced his love and faithfulness first hand, and I have been blessed in ways that I could never truly explain to you in words.
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